Work hurt! Jason kept laughing at me cuz on my break I took off my sock and rolled up my pant leg so my burn wouldn't hurt. Why is other peoples pain so entertaining. I have to admit my splotchy burn is pretty funny! I asked Neil if I had showed him my burn and he replied "You're burnt? That explains why you are walking funny." I cannot believe It's affecting my walk that's embarrassing.

Youth night was fun, the game I planned is not for summer it makes you too hot and sweaty. I enjoyed our discussion, I want that book. I can't believe people are still having to die for their faith in our times. I was astonished when I heard that one girl was shot at Columbine because, when asked if she believed in God she said yes. I'm not sure how I would react in that situation. I would hope that my humanly desires wouldn't get in the way of my love for God. The fear would be overwhelming, I may just deny him to feel safe again. The other story Andrea addressed from the book was about a man in the army who had different beliefs than everyone else there. They tried to break him. They made him stand out in the winter day and night in summer clothing, for many days. Every time they passed him they asked if he was going to change his beliefs yet. Each time he said no. He didn't find it cold at all, the Lord was with him. They ended up killing him we only know these from letters he wrote to his father. I am amazed by people with faith like that. Trusting in God to keep you safe. I really need to trust in him instead of being so independent. I love to control everything. That way if something goes wrong I only have myself to blame.

I guess that's why I still live at home I have to take care of everyone. I can't do it myself though. I don't need to take care of anyone. I have spent my childhood worrying about how to protect myself and my sisters. Although I failed miserably, it was stress I should never had to take on. I want to live for myself now. Have fun, be a 22 year old almost 23, not a provider for my family.

Lord give me strength in everyday things. Help me to remember that you are with me and that you are my prize after death. Protect my family and friends and I, that we may never face intense situations like these in the book. I am grateful for your love and grace. Thank you Heavenly Father. Amen.

I bought Tommy Boy, such a funny movie! and Hot Chick love that one! and How I Met Your Mother season 3 . I will bring it to work for you girls Monday. They were so upset when Dale took his copy home.

July Big Brother is coming back I cannot wait. It's the only reality show I enjoy! Veto, food comps, HOH, luxury comps, twists! SWEEEEEET!

better get ready for work later!