A Bit Of Everything.

So, I haven't blogged in a while. But if you follow me on twitter, are friends with me on facebook or see me a lot, you have heard me complain about my wisdom tooth being pulled. I know, I'm a baby. I have been floored by the pain. On Friday my Uncle Pierre called to let me know he heard on CHVN that it was Shine Dental's "Free Day" Free Day meaning they do free work for people with no insurance. So, my mom and i hopped out of bed and went there. The secretary told us you had to make appointments, but could fit us in because of a cancellation. I was thinking to myself It's our lucky day (this was before I had gotten the news that they planned on pulling my wisdom tooth.) Had I known this was the case I would have stayed in bed. Yes, I love sleep that much. If you have ever spent a day with me you would know that I am obsessive about brushing my teeth. I have to brush my teeth after every meal. This means carrying my tooth brush and sometimes mouth wash with me. Needless to say hearing I could get a free cleaning was reason enough to pull me out of bed.

The Dental assistant asked me if I had anything that was bothering me, so I mentioned how food got stuck between my teeth in the back. She quickly took an X-ray and informed me my wisdom tooth would have to be pulled because it was wearing out my other tooth. The X-Ray was bizarre my wisdom tooth was jamming horizontally into my teeth. I was completely comfortable when he numbed my mouth. Once he told me he had to break some bones and slice some of my gum my heart began to race. This was a feeling way too familiar to me it was the "OMG what am I doing?" heart pounding I had when I got my tattoo.

Dr. Wong kept telling me I was doing Great he must have read my emotions easily. I was freaking out on the inside but staying calm and quiet in the real world. I felt like a test subject, All the dental Assistants had to come look at my X-ray and stop by to see how things were going. Dr. Wong also kept saying things like "now it should come right out" or "this should do the trick, nope" and "Let's try this" He had to take it out in 7 pieces. So not fun! Now, I'm suffering through some pain and can't wait for these stitches to dissolve. A few days have passed and my stitches have tore open and I have a gaping hole in my gum. Real fun!

I saw the man of my dreams the other day. I'm gonna call him Sport Chek guy because I only see him when he shops there. He doesn't come in too often but every time he does I want to run to him and never let go. It's too bad He's unavailable. Maybe he will leave his girlfriend because of the amazing small talk he and I have lol j/k Seriously, He's like this dreamy model type. Perhaps he isn't as hot as I make him out to be because I told Chrissy about him when he left and she said I didn't really look. He's the kind of attractive that you can't help but look. Also he's not some air head jock or dumb blonde model he uses intelligent words. Where do men like that hang out? I wanna go there. lol I'm not shallow, I would totally date any guy. He just has to have an amazing sense of humor and a brain. No dense boys for me!

I finally bought the last season of How I Met Your Mother. I love the show. For next weeks work schedule Jacey asked me if I preferred 40 hrs or Monday nights off so I can watch my show. Of course I said How................................................................ about the 40 hours.

I caught something that I find interesting. In the episode where Ted has his first day as professor he mentions how his wife is in that class. Will we meet her? I'm not sure because he's in the wrong room. I heard a rumor that Rachel Bilson will play the mother. Is Perez Hilton wrong?

I have missed bible study and youth for a few weeks now. I'm totally losing touch. I don't read my bible as nearly as I should and that pexting idea isn't working I'm the last on the list and never get the message. I wonder if my number is correct?! I wish they could work my shifts so that I can have Wed. and Friday nights off. at least I still have Sundays.

I still really miss Twyla I want to send her a message to say hi and see how she is doing but I don't wanna upset her. Why does life have to suck?

I have missed the gym so much lately totally not in the mood. I need it though. I have been so tired since I don't go as often. It's okay for a bit but I have to get back into the routine. Summer aka swimsuit time will be here sooner than you think. Especially if i keep skipping the gym.

So, I wonder about people why we do what we do. I don't understand why or how we can hurt people and not mean it. When I was a kid I told my cousin my best friend liked him when she told me not to. Why do we always think we know what's best for people. What qualifies us to be the know it all with all the right answers. I'm completely talking about myself. I'm extremely judgmental I always make comments like "when I'm a parent I won't do that" or "They need to discipline them better" or "That kid deserves a good smack" (all kids need a good beating to set them right) (I turned out fine) I also tell people what they do wrong in relationships; Like don't date someone you think you can change cuz you can't, or he doesn't respect you if he fooled around with you when he knew you were in a serious relationship.

I still think these are valid comments. I do think that since I have not experienced raising children or a relationship that I shouldn't judge. Somehow I still feel I know best. I have observed these situations and I can learn from seeing these things. I know everyone hates that I judge them for these things but it's something I have to work on. I'm glad I am like this in a way. I can use these things I judge people with to do the right things in my life. It won't make me an expert but it will save me from some problems. I'm sure I will mess up in some areas but then you can judge me and tell me what I'm doing wrong. I like healthy criticism.

I love being random. I was watching, I may have mentioned this before, Scrubs. The Janitor and JD are whispering and then JD asks why are we whispering. The Janitor says, I wanted to see if you would whisper too. I have tried that a few times. SO much fun. THe other day I walked up to Jacey with my hand in High 5 mode not telling him I wanted a High 5, I got one though. I haven't gotten left hanging by this test but we'll see how it goes. If you have any ideas on other random things I can do let me know.

I was talking with my parents about how sneaky of a kid I was. I was funny. I may have talked about these before but I find them entertaining. My older sister and I had my youngest sister fall asleep on the pile of toys in my room so I wouldn't have to clean and could go play. I use to fall asleep with my face in the vegetables so I wouldn't have to eat them. I also take the blame for broken dishes because I know people like me best and don't get mad at me. I also had this ingenious plan to fake that I'm asleep when the parents came into the room to yell at us for talking. I would have a certain position that I would sleep in and every time I heard them coming I would lye the same way. I wanna hear everyones stories. How sneaky were you?

well i gotta go get ready. Later <3

Warning: You are about to encounter some faith talk!

So I was watching a Youtube video of a Kirk Cameron interview and there was the funniest comments on the page.

Non Christians have the funniest thoughts. Well I'm sure Christians have said some weird things before too. It is good that they ask these questions but they aren't really seeking answers, they are bashing our beliefs.

Here is one about Micheal J. Fox because he was mentioned in the interview: (I wonder why he wasn't asked "So why do you think God gave MJF Parkinson's?" what a Hack!)

In my personal opinion and from what I have learned in my few years as a Christian; God doesn't curse people. If he did "give" Micheal Parkinson's you should know that God doesn't give anyone things they cannot handle. If God did punish people by giving them Illnesses wouldn't he give; Murders and Rapists diseases like this? I think that Micheal got this disease so that he could make a difference. His fame and riches has made him the perfect person to spear head Parkinson's research. I don't know Micheal J. Fox's Religious beliefs, but I know that God will use believers and no believers to do his work. So far Micheal has been doing a good job.

Another one; (there are many people dying, hungry poor and God couldn't give two shits about them and Kirk has money a beautiful wife, God answers his prayers. What a load of shit!)

Well, this ones a toughie. Yes, Kirk is blessed. God gives to those who have given. When you give money you get money, when you give love you get love, and when you give help you receive help. God is using Kirk to spread his word. These homeless/ hungry people are also doing God's work. With the love and kindness they show people and stray animals. They have nothing and are humble and loving. People give them shelter and food and God smiles. Know that these people aren't doomed to live lives of hunger and lack of shelter. They too can have money and rich, full lives. They just need to trust in God. I'm not saying that these people are all non believers. Even; every Sunday, front row, church attendees do not have enough faith to believe that God can pull them out of their pain. The homeless may have more faith than some church regulars. We also have to know that not everything is handed to you on a platter. You have to search for work or help. If you are homeless and hungry but won't get up and walk to the soup kitchen, how do you expect to be fed?

Now, people are going to think I am harsh and cruel. Sorry but I'm a tough love kind of girl. If you want something work for it. Maybe your dreams are bigger than you think possible. Know that nothing is impossible with God. You just have to be willing to do anything for God and believe with all your heart it is possible.

One thing I find Highly entertaining is how atheists love to slam our beliefs. They feel they have a right to tell us we are insane. I as a Christian would never tell you, you were wrong to your face, although I know you are wrong. I would Pray for you and hope you would come to know how amazing God is. I would only tell you of my beliefs if you had some interest. If you had questions I would try to answer them to the best of my knowledge. I will also be honest to tell you I don't have all the answers because I am still learning. Even my Pastor who I find to be extremely wise, would tell you he doesn't have every answer to every question. A wise person is humble enough to know this.

All the answers any human has is in the Bible, so I recommend reading it. You may tell me you have read it from start to finish and didn't get what you were looking for. My answer is that you are asking the wrong questions and to try again. Many times a passage has a different meaning when read the second time. Something different speaks to you and what you are going through now.

I am so annoyed by the crazy people who call themselves Christians. The people who say the are on America's Next Top Model because God told them to do it. People who have murdered and said God told me to do it is insane. People who don't drink and dance because God says it's wrong. At the last supper Jesus says he will drink wine with the disciples in his Father's kingdom. So, It's not a sin to drink. I know this because Jesus was and is the only man to live a life free of sin. Drunkenness is another story. If it was a sin to Dance would the bible tell us to praise him through dance in Psalm 149:3?

I have really enjoyed this blog. Forced me crack open the bible a couple of times and to stick up for my beliefs. Perhaps I would not be strong enough to take a bullet for my faith but maybe someday. I've grown this much so who knows what God can and will continue to do in my life.

I love him.

I really don't care if you are reading this and think I am crazy. I warned you it got intense. This is what I believe. Maybe someday through my studies of the bible my belief will change but I will always Love Jesus, and follow what I have read in the Bible.

Good Night and God Bless!

Superstar!

Yesterday I Forgot to bring my runners with me to church so I had to wear my flats I'm so glad I didn't have an 8 hour shift or my feet would have been killing me. I had to take my shoes off somewhere in the middle of my shift and stand on my tip toes so they wouldn't hurt. Never again will I forget my shoes. I remember how Jason was telling me to buy shoes comfort over looks and I disagreed. I soon regretted it. I then bought some comfortable asics and he got to say I told you so. lol

I was trying to find out the air date of the how I met your mother season 5 and saw a preview but it wouldn't let me watch it because I am not an American citizen. BOO!!!

So, I usually am so envious of all the happy couples around me but not lately. Everyone has become single. I think single might just be so much easier. No need to worry about other peoples feelings, and freedom. Not that I need freedom. A boy wouldn't and shouldn't take away from personal time and girlfriend time. And if you are with the right person you wont hurt them and they wont hurt your feelings. I do see the appeal of a relationship but, I don't think i can be in one. I'm too independent. I like to do things for myself and by myself. I've seen too many of the women around me rely on men for income, to foot the bill, to buy them pretty things. I have a job, I can do all that myself. Heck I have supported my mom and my sister on my measly Subway paycheck. If I were in a relationship I may fight over the bill and never let him buy me things.

That should be in a personal add, men would love never paying or wasting money on things that he can't wear. lol

So, I'm doomed to be single because of my independence. I think I'm okay with that sure I'd love to have a guy around but I can live alone.

I'm probably just saying this because I'm sick of being single. I think I may really want a relationship so I tell myself I love being single. Does that make any sense? Probably the smartest thing I've said.

I don't mind being single though. I have gotten comfortable. It's what I know, Safe.

It's terrible of me to judge people but when I look at these people who have been in relationships, I wonder why and how they could hurt someone they supposedly love. I then wonder is it just because they are human? Will I be doomed to hurt someone too? Let's hope not. Let's hope my observing these other peoples mistakes will help me get it right.

I found a book that has all my prayers in it, I haven't written my prayers down in a long time. I'm going to try that again. It seemed to keep me closer to God. It made me think of who I am and realize all my mistakes and improve on those qualities.

Maybe I have changed since a year ago. Hope I can become a better person.

That reminds me my friend Twyla, Can I still call her my friend if she doesn't want to be my friend? I would still call her my friend because I still want to be her friend. That would be like that movie Beyonce is in, Obsessed. The other woman was insane and claimed they were a happy item, when really she made it all up in her head. SO, I will now refer to Twyla as my greatest old friend. It sounds better than ex best friend. Ex best friend makes it seem like we are not friends, my choice. I do want to be her friend but she chose not to be mine. What I wanted to say about Twyla is that I really miss her I keep relating things to "Friends" and no one gets the comparison. She would. I miss hearing about her daily life. Her work day, even when it was something dull she made it exciting. I guess that's why she is a reporter. She tells a great story. I would even tell her stories (about how she lost her cell phone, or how she wrote to Robert Munsch for a school project) to people around me. I'm sad that she has these negative feelings and thoughts towards me. I'm sad that I'm not the friend she wants to keep around. I hope I was a good enough friend for her, one that she deserved. She is a great person and deserves true happiness.

I've come up with a new pose for pictures. We went to the forks and Sarah wanted her picture taken so I told her to do the superstar pose. While I said this I put my fingers under my armpits and then sniffed them. While not meaning to I made a random stranger laugh. I'm going to pose like that always so I can remember that day :)

I really want to go to bed so I can wake up and get my cell phone back. I am so mad that I left it in Jacey's office. I put it down on the golf set box and thought to myself don't forget it there. Of course I do :( Since it's a long weekend I've had to wait a hole day. If you have ever forgotten your cell at home you will agree with me that you feel naked without it. I keep hearing vibrations and ring tones from other peoples cell phones and I look around like a lost puppy, searching for it's mother.

Of course when I thought I had left it in Kelsey's car I facebook messaged every single person to try get Kelsey's number. The only person to reply was Dinuldy. She's so awesome :)

Well I gotta do somethings before I sleep. Good Night

While in swan I learned how to light a fire. We needed to know how since we were going camping over the weekend. I am a city girl, most of the time. I don't get dirty if I don't have to. Growing up, whenever my dad had to fix a car or something electrical, I would be the one bringing drinks or something. I would never help. I didn't learn anything from Camp, even though I took the wilderness course. So, we attempted to get the fire started and had no success the paper would burst into flames and then quickly burn out. Every time we tried. The next day we tried using these amazing things called fire starters. They ignite immediately, all you have to do is surround it with kindling and some wood and you are set. They should have mentioned that when I was at camp. lol

Houses are so expensive. we have to shell out some money for a duct cleaning. I would rather rub a balloon on a cat and throw it down there. That would have the humane on my case, so how about putting my niece in a fuzzy tutu and sending her in there to collect the dust. Then Child and Family Services would hunt me down. I guess since I fit through a tennis racket I could shimmy my way through there. lol

Speaking of CFS. I was reading in the Free Press about the kid getting their head smashed onto the curb. How can anyone do that? I cannot remember, did they say the lady was drunk? another reason why I don't like booze. Perhaps she was mentally unaware. If that's the case. I'm sad. I am not sure of my thoughts on this subject. If some one suffers from a mental disability and murders someone should they just go to a facility for help? I'm thinking they should still be in prison and get the help they need there. Dangerous people shouldn't be free to roam the streets. that would be a controversial topic. agree or disagree with me on the subject??

I went to the gym with Jen the other day. She is one dedicated girl. I usually go for an hour she kept me there for two. Needless to say my body hurts. :(

lame blog but i'm tired and i open tomorrow g'night!