I was reading some of my old notes from High School and Facebook. Wow was I obsessive. I would talk about how I would make myself noticeable to my crushes by finding out their classes and walking by. I went out of my way to do my hair for them and choose the cutest outfits. I’m really glad I have decided I don’t care about men anymore. I’m dressing for myself and doing everything for myself. It’s a better more healthy way to live. Someday I will meet the man God has hand picked out for me. Since he’s already been chosen there is no need for me to search for him. This new outlook has made it way easier to be friendlier with guys. I now can smile and chat with hot guys without getting all flustered. I am a confident and strong girl now. I also find myself attracted to all types of guys since my I don’t care attitude. I’m more about the personality. Which is great because I hated how Judgemental I was becoming.
I am now on a new quest in life. I want to find out what I want to be in life or rather what God wants me to be. How can I make a difference in the world? I went out for supper with some great people awhile back. One was a teachers assistant and one who worked at the boys and girls club, one a future teacher, the other who works for Manitoba’s Youth in Care Network. They all are doing great things in this world.
I’m also going to live vicariously through others. I want to become a cop but cannot because of my neck injury. I know a couple people who are on that path and I will mooch off their interesting lives. I had a love for cooking but lost interest in that. Someday I will have my dream home with a huge kitchen and large dining room to have the whole family over for Christmas. We will all cook together and not get in each others way. Dishes will be a breeze once I have a giant dishwasher like in restaurants that you rinse and push through the washer and they come out steaming hot and clean. Maybe a walk-in Fridge? L.O.L. doubt it. I will still get to cook so that dream is not lost. I was thinking about the brief love affair I had with drawing. I wasn’t the best artist but I enjoyed drawing. I’m sure if I took courses I could improve my skills. It’s hard for me to sit and draw these days I feel like there are more important things to do. Drawing just takes so much time, I’m not a speed artist. I’m lucky I know a really talented artist. I can look at his art and hear about the class. I love looking at art and hearing the theme and analyzing how they came up with the picture. I love really good art. Stuff that makes you think. I love photography that is the type of artist I want to be. I want to take a really good picture that conveys an awesome message. If only I had an interesting mind and could be that creative. I enjoy singing but I miss a lot of notes and sound like a dying canary.
So, what will I be if those are all the dreams I cannot do? How do I go about finding this amazing course I’m suppose to take without wasting money? When will I discover this amazing thing I will do to change the world? Sport Chek cannot be the answer, how can I affect peoples lives there?
