I'm just a teddy bear.

So, Recently I have learned a lot about myself. I am more needy than I thought. I want to be in a relationship so badly. There goes the Mrs. Independent front I had up. I'm just a girl, who wants to be cared for. I tell people I hate hugs but I secretly I can't wait to cuddle up to the perfect man. I'm a teddy bear on the inside. I set up this wall to protect myself from some of the evil I have encountered in the past. I wish I could just learn to let God take care if everything. How do you teach yourself to do that? I really like control. I am taking control of this now. I will give it all to God and be filled with the holy ghost, soon. No more being lazy. Gotta, read my Bible pray every day...lol He is the true secret to happiness.

I have never known so much Happiness before in my life. I have to thank the Lord and live everyday for him so that I can keep this joy.

more another time.

ARG!

So, why do people take advantage of me? I try to be nice and do things for people and then in spite of my niceness they ask for more. Even when they see me in a sticky situation and I offer free tickets to them, they want more. Can't they see that I am not made of money, that Dane cost me a fortune? Why would you ask for a free ticket for someone else. Stop being a mooch and grow up! I do appreciate the people who understand these things and are actually grateful I gave them the tickets and even tried to sell some for me. Why can't there be more people like them?

I have tons of great people around me though. I'm so proud of them. Chrissy for becoming a Paramedic. Andrea working with kids and helping out the autistic boy. I know so many awesome people that work with kids and people struggling with disabilities. Jaclyn, Benji, Alex, Marie, Katherine, Tessa. Keep up the good work. Kids need good influences, and I'm glad these are the people who have decided to make a difference in the world.

So, I think I want to work at Sport Chek for a really long time. I'm not sure if it's because it's comfortable for me, or if I think I can go far there. I love the people I work with. I find myself wanting to be the boss. Not the manager, but when I see employees standing around for too long when there is something more productive they could be doing I get frustrated. I find the urge to find a task for them and tell them to do it. I desire for our store to run successfully, and I think we need to work as a team for that to happen. I hate when I see someone wasting time. It drives me insane when people think they get paid to stand around. I've had employees say their job is so easy. If they were the people who I knew were hard workers this sentence wouldn't bug me so much, but they aren't. There is always something to be done. I'm not trying to sound like the man whipping his horse to get him to move. I believe work is a place to have fun but I think you should finish your tasks as well. So you make it a game to see who can answer the phone and have a chuckle over that, but you get back to work. Standing around and having 20 minute conversations is not necessary, task while talking. I think that I want to a have a more important position at Sport Chek because It annoys me to see customers who have not been helped when the employee is off tasking. I am not sure how I could change things. Maybe since I'm on the floor always I know what each employee needs to work on. Don't get me wrong we have tons of people who are awesome at their jobs. And I'm not saying that I'm the best employee I sometimes stop and talk I realize these moments and then I feel guilty and try to find something to do. I'm tired of people thinking being a cashier would be a breeze. Maybe I'm biased but we have a tough job. We deal with all the difficult customers. Say each sales associate has one dumb customer, that makes three for us. We have to remember numbers and which customer an SA called up to say is theirs. We clean, hang clothes, grab fitting rooms and even sometimes sell to customers. Don''t think we have it easy. We work hard and are under paid!!!!!!!

well i gotta shower and get ready good night!