I have met the guy of my dreams. So that's the lovely good thing in my life. Work seems to be going good, I'm getting forty hours and I still love everyone I work with. I also decided to start saving for my future by opening an RSP account.
All these great things were followed by the fact that my sister lost her job and I am now the only one supporting my mom, her and myself. Since when was it okay to have your daughter support you? I didn't mind it at first because I assumed it would only be for awhile. That was the case but then my mom lost her job again. I asked my sister to get a job to help out with the bills her reply was, " you didn't have to get a job while you were in school." So I waited. She got a job after school. and everything seemed fine. Now I'm the main supporter of our household. Does this make sense to you. I'm done I think. It's too stressful. I told them to land a job before March or I'm gone. I would feel terrible for leaving them tho. Really, should I have to pay for someone's loan or credit card. Ugh! I feel like my mom has gotten comfortable. She doesn't want a job. The only way to get her out of this faze is to force her. Shake her comfortable world. She use to be this strong woman who could take anything. I need her to be that mother again. I need to feel secure. I don't like this pressure.
I'm 23 I should be out enjoying life.
Meanwhile, I found out I need glasses. That I cannot afford. My eyes keep getting worse too.
because I'm too nice i will stay here let it eat me alive.
Stay tuned....
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