Friday, March 19, 2010

I feel so vain right now!!!!!

First of all I have this lovely friend who needs a kidney and of course I told her I would donate mine. I'm praying to God were a match. I am not just making an impulsive decision. I want to donate my organs when I die and I don't see the difference of donating one now if it's something I don't need. I have been asking people about it and I want to pray about it until I am sure that it's what God wants and not just my hearts desire. I think it's what God wants. I really want to donate my kidney to her.

I finally got a hold of someone to set up an appointment for me. I had to fax her my blood donor card and she said she would send me a letter with the date of my appointment soon. It will be for the last weekend of April. Then I will be asked more heath questions. She asked me a bunch of medical questions today, things like; Do you have a family history of diabetes?, Have you been sexually active?, Have you ever had kidney cancer?, Do you drink?, smoke? When I said no to all these and others she tells me I sound pretty healthy. I was like I'm glad you think so. Does she really think if I was unhealthy I would be trying to donate my kidney?

Anyways I was researching kidney donations today and saw a picture of where the incision was made and it was a curved arc on the left side of the lower abdomen. I cringed at the thought of having my tattoo sliced open. I know I recently said that I don't like tattoos and don't think I should have gotten one. I don't think there is any good reason to get a tattoo. So don't do it!!! I know you think this makes me a hypocrite but it doesn't I got one without really thinking about it and if I could go back in time I would. My reasoning, now that I reflect upon it was pretty dumb. I may or may not have told you why I got my tattoo. It's a cement cross by the way with a thorn crown above it. I wanted my tattoo as a purity ring, to remind myself that I am saving myself for marriage. Which I am. So, I'm against getting tattoos. I will have mine removed, nor do I hate it. I think it's tasteful. Anyways back to the kidney, I don't wanna slice my tattoo open and have a broken cross on my body, that would look bad! LOL
Who's to say it will be my right kidney that they will take anyways. Luckily I did read something else that is said they go through the back to remove kidneys' I'm down with that. Let's hope that's the case.

My other fer is going through all this testing and finding out I am not a healthy candidate. I guess it's better to know that there is something wrong so we can tackle it before it's too late but it's still a scary thought. One thing that I don't like is that the healing time is so long, six to eight weeks. My sister and I can barely afford the bills on both our incomes. I suppose I should trust that God will provide. Plus my job isn't that strenuous, I'm sure I can go back a bit sooner.

I will you keep you posted. Let me know if you think it's vain if I tell the doctors I will do anything to not have them mess up my tattoo.